Abi: School Lunches[25/30]

I’ve been enjoying a three day weekend with John, so today’s topic is going to be something not too time invoking or serious.

I remember when I was in elementary school the lunches they had were pretty damn awesome. There was a salad bar and a hot food lane, and on Fridays there was pizza or tacos to choice from.
I remember my all-time favourite thing was the rolls. I love those damn things! I still do, and I have tried so hard to find rolls similar to them for purchase, because… well, I droll just thinking of that buttery doughy goodness.
Ah, now I’m hungry for one!
(I also remember that lunch room was where we put on school plays on the little stage there, and where the PTA meetings were held… It was Memorial Elementary… I’m trying to remember Eastside, but I can’t right now.)

I remember in Junior High that I didn’t eat from the cafeteria even once. I honestly think, in retrospect, it was because of my anxiety of such things. I can’t explain it really, I just felt extremely uncomfortable to have to walk up there and navigate some unknown rules of how the lunch line worked… I had issues.
Same ended up happening in High School. I’d sit in the lunchroom, and sometimes I’d bring something, but I would never go through the lunch line… even for those yummy rolls.
I missed out on a lot in those years from my serious anxiety issues.

I’m remembering now the group I sat with in High School, with Dana, the Brians, and Joe (sometimes)… I think there were others, but I honestly can remember right now. Strange… For sometime, while Dana was dating Dan (I remember him and his ENDLESS old school Doctor Who (well, that was the only Doctor Who then) quoting… and that he was my 6th grade biology’s teacher’s son), he’d sit with us. I remember them holding hands sometimes and how very bothered I was, but still on the edge of giggling as well… Like I mentioned before, I was a late bloomer… Oh, shit, I never got over some of that, no lie: Lovey-dovey scenes still kind of make me uncomfortable! I’m not a fan of public displays of affection, never have been… I think it’s obvious that I’m no romantic type.

At some point, I think when the two of my friends were graduated the year before (Amariah and Donna) and my other friends had a different lunch period, I ended up sitting with my sister and her group of friends outside. It was an odd time, and none of them were truly my friends, not even my sister at the time. I was going through some rough things at the time, any ways, and so it all made for some bad experience that year… Well, I had just lost my dad, was having severe panic attacks, and was out of school more than in… I have no good memories from that time, really.

You know, I think tomorrow I might talk about some of the varied and interesting field trips I had back in school.