Abi: I don’t have to be myself! [29/30]

I wasn’t sure if I’d  talk about roleplay, but I think it was a big part of my life when I was younger… and were it I lived nearer to friends I’d still be playing. (Excuse the weirdness of this post…)

I’d done several types of roleplay when I was a teen. I think my first attempts for online. I played with my friend Leslie, a Star Trek one, with my characters Avalonna Archer and another, whose name suddenly alludes me though I remember his persona so well.
I remember it was a frustrating thing, through a Yahoo! group emailing thing or something, I don’t remember too well the system... I can’t remember if I agreed she was going to be a child of a one of the Q and a part of a story line, of if she was half betazoid (spelling). Whatever she was, she acted very much like a Vulcan, nearly emotionless… she did have a singer’s background, but she lacked passion, it was all about the science.
Well, I remember someone had been moving forward a scene and had my character smile and nod that them. I was so livid. Why would my character do this, even such a simple thing, WHY would you touch my character to begin with?! I know it seems so petty… but to me it was serious.
It made me HATE that form of roleplaying…

Another one I am sort of ashamed to admit I was a part of was an Invisible Man roleplay. I was playing Bobby Hobbes in two different ones I believe, and end up having to take a hiatus, so someone took over my character. Well, suddenly he became suicidal and in love with someone… which struck me as very bizarre… so now I totally hated roleplaying online.

I think, briefly, I played in a Jekyll & Hyde online game… but it never went anywhere, for my character.

Then Dana had talked to me about playing Vampire with her, Joe, Nora, and there was someone else who played like two or so games… We were playing Sabbath, and I still remember my first character very well (he never leaves me alone, really) . His name was Jajarick, though I ended up playing his other personality, Lancer, far more often. Jajarick was a Pander (meaning without a clan), but Lancer was a Malkie… it’s hard to explain, but basically, his sire had used Dementation on him and he’d gone insane for awhile (like a year, I think that was the results of the roll), which caused him quite a few personality disorders… and Lancer, this new spilt, from his new issue, had been the one brought across as a vampire… Later on, when the Dementation wore off, Jajarick became ‘aware’ again, properly, and found himself to be, what he had feared in the little spaces between, a vampire. He knew nothing about this thing that had happened to him, it was some strange curse, that seemed to happen shortly after the black outs (Lancer coming about)… But, I’ll not write his whole story out here, this wasn’t where I was going with this…
This game, while I was entirely nervous to start with, turned into one of my favourite memories from that time of my life.  I remember I started to model Jajarick’s personality off of Vampire Hunter D, and his appearance a little the same, but also this awesome image of Erik (Magneto) from a 1996 X-Men comic… long silver coloured hair. Then I took him into life, and well, tormented him… but not before drawing out a very in-depth timeline of his life prior to the game… it was fun… it was weird… I think I still have some of the roleplay info and images I collected (most from anime’s) that I used for my character creation… I might have to look later, just to be amused.

Then I moved on a little, I ended up storytelling a bit, and fell in love… I loved having others send my characters into unknown things, but I also loved populating a whole city and curving a story around other people’s characters. I love character creation. I love building people into life, giving them flaws and making them seem real… I have this incredible dislike of those characters that are so unique and rare, that have no real flaws, and seem to know more than they should… I really get irked by how some people play. I think I approach it all differently. I was about the psychological game, not the battling and levelling my characters up…

I remember my main character for my Huntington campaign was Julianno, another Malkie (but in a different direction)… I remember he had a whole back story as well. He ended up being married into the mob, and subsequently killed off in it as well. I don’t remember if he was sired by them, or by someone who witnessed the event. I want to say it was his new brother-in-law who spared him, but I’m thinking it HAD to be a female because of later issues he developed (damn Malkies)… only problem was he had to leave behind his wife and unborn child, or else the his new father-in-law might hear about him and that he wasn’t as dead as he ought to be. He was an interesting character. I know he didn’t want to be made a vampire, and he developed some serious (SERIOUS) issues with this that turned outward in how he’d treat his victims because of how he felt violated to be living that life (not G-rated, not even R-rated, so I will not write about it here… I never really got into that completely, sadly, with anyone, because people just DON’T want to know what Julianno had the urges to do to calm himself)…. I think he also had a issue with blood, I think it had to be a certain temperature to carry nutrients to him. Oh my GAWD, I need to find his character sheet (which I think was lost in the apartment in Florida, damnit, but maybe just maybe I have a digital version somewhere), I’m forgetting about his details! I remember his personality, these things I never forget… but those little things, the dots on the sheets, those flaws and merits, his ability levels: they’re drifting from my thoughts.
I do remember that he made his grandson into a Ghoul…

Any ways… enough of my silly characters…

I ended up becoming addicted to a game with Dana over the phone. It started off innocently, and then… it became something very obsessive. It was what I lived for, we’d start talking at night and come sunrise we’d still be talking… The phone bill at one point was some $600 or more, I think… it was INSANE… Seriously, it was an addiction, it effected my life in a BIG way. Nothing else mattered for awhile, just this epic story we were telling together…

After that it died. I tried a few online things from time to time, and I think I started a Wraith game with Amariah that didn’t go very far… (Gideon was his name… I have FAR too many male characters… actually, I think all player characters were male. o.O)

I think I ought to give it another shot sometime.